“And suddenly you know: It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”
― Meister Eckhart
I woke up to the feeling of newness as my being realized that a year had gone and a new one has started. There was strangeness, nostalgia as I recall what had happened the previous year. I couldn’t remember anything left undone, except my homework which sits and hibernates inside a file in my hard drive. I knew then that it was time to take a stand and breathe in the fresh air and step forward to embrace what was to come.
A thought sprung about, “I will make new memories.”
To Lisa of 2013,
I will make new memories. You looked at me steadily and you tilted your head as if to question why I was saying this to you. I’m pretty sure you knew but I would have to tell you so that I may come to terms with it myself.
You quite had the roller coaster life, hadn’t you? You crashed and burned–you are not without bruises and scars. You are still as lovely as ever however you grimace because memories of your experiences had left you somewhat battered. I know you had fun too. We are very different from each other now, funny what happens within a year–how much change I’ve gone through, not without pain, not without struggles. Life is simply like that.
But yes, I promise you I will make new memories. They will not make up for the experiences that you wish to forget, no. They will be somewhat a redemption of those experiences that caused pain. I will go to places you didn’t dare visit because it hurt to do so. I will go to those places and make new ones so you too, can reconcile with them. It will be a journey towards overcoming the hurts. It will be a journey that will put you at peace. It will be a journey that will let you and I breathe easy.
I look forward to the end of this new year, even though it has just started and I will look back to you, Lisa of 2013 and I will see the scars begone, the memories cherished and the unforgiven redeemed.
We will be alright.